Know what makes me even more sad?
It amazes me that a few years ago this wasn't even on my radar. I was SO happy with my four beautiful kids that I had always dreamed of. I didn't want another child. When I felt the tug on my heart to adopt, selfish me tried every way to ignore it. When I finally caved and started praying about it I watched the Lord completely change my heart right in front of my eyes. I went from that selfish, "I don't think we can raise anymore children." to "Can we adopt 50?!" haha! Pretty sure if you asked Josh he would tell you the same thing.
I remember the moment, actually. I was feeling more obligated that we needed to adopt more so than a "want to". It was a Saturday in early 2015. The kids were all playing in the floor in the living room and I was just hanging with them. Then it hit me and I felt the NEED to have another. (No, I don't care if you think I'm crazy.)
The Lord took something that I LOVE-children-and used it to draw me closer to Him.
I am not in any way, shape, form or fashion worthy of THAT. But, I am so thankful He has chosen us!
My heart is broken for the orphans in this world. These babies that grow up without the love of a family.
Can I just say that if you feel that little tug....just think a little more about it. And pray about it starting right now! :)