Again

I sit here once again mourning the loss of a grandparent. My MawMaw passed away yesterday. Two days before my birthday. ugh. That's two grandmothers in 5 months. Life sucks sometimes. This time it's way harder. I was much closer to this grandmother. Growing up I was either with her or Big Mama, especially during the summer. I would stay with her and PawPaw during the day while my daddy and step-mom were at work. We'd clean the church, go to quilting, go swimming at my aunt's house, grocery shop, she would fuss at PawPaw. Best memories of my life!

I'm really gonna miss her. But she really missed PawPaw and now they are together again.

I'm thankful for the time I had with her. I'm thankful that she got to love my babies, her great-grandbabies!

Griffin took the news pretty hard. This is the first time he has really had to deal with death, or the first time he has understood. I sat him down yesterday afternoon, just me and him. I told him I needed to talk to him about MawMaw that lives by Gigi and Papa. He said, "yeah, the one that loves us so much!" I about broke. I told him that she didn't feel good, she was sick and she went to be with Jesus and PawPaw in Heaven. He lost it. Big, huge crocodile tears. I told him that she missed PawPaw and now they were together. I told him that she would also take care of Mako until we got to Heaven one day. I finally had to call Josh in the room because I lost it at that point and didn't know what else to say to him. That's tough.

I'll try to post again in the next few days about what all happened to her at the hospital. For now, I'm drained.

xoxo